A year later!

I am amazingly bad at blogs. But right now I feel really stired to keep a blog and to keep it going. I've decided I want to do more then write down for myself to then read later on, that I want to write down everything about how God is changing me, How he has radically turned my life around and how I love him more then anything ever. I was gona make a whole new blog but when I looked at this one with its whole one post I thought I might aswell just re-lanch this one.
The main goal of this blog is to tell of my experience of Jesus, of what I know is truth, and I welcome anyone who wishes to listen. However synical of faith you are, however much of a athiest you are, or whatever other faith you may have. My one prayer is that I will never give out a holyer then thou attitude, That people will always here my heart and never hear what I'm not saying. It will also be useful for friends and family from my past church to keep them updated on whats going on, cause all their prayers are greatly aprociated and needed.
I'm gona start with my testimony and a breif who I am..
My name is Deli, My full name is Adéle Francis Macro (although francis is not on my birth certficate) I am 20 years of age, I am very short and look about 14. I am an animation student at the University of Portsmouth. I live in Portsmouth.
I have a amazing family, every single person in my family has such amazing charector, I can't even fully describe any of them.. they just a amazing bunch of people. I have Mum and Dad and two Brothers (Carl and Adam, both older), Nannie and Poppa, Grandma (who passed a few years ago now) and Grandad, and no end of aunties, uncles and cousins.
My perents became christians when I was 7, No-one in our family (Apart from Grandma, who was a very strong catholic) were christians so this was a radical change for them, learning it all from the start sort of. I was baptised in the spirit when I was 7, at a place called sizewell. At my brother Carls baptism. Carl is one person in the world I have the most respect for, enough though he is my brother and I probely don't show it very well. Carl has suffered from liver problems since he was about 4ish (something obvs I'm not gona write loads about online but I feel is a big part of my familys testimony) he has had 2 liver transplants so far (he is 27). I remember at his baptism REALLLLY praying for him and really feeling the presence of God spirit in that place. Although I dont really remember all the details, I remember GOD WAS THERE.
I was a normal christian brought up child complete with all Sunday school answers (It's always Jesus or Peer Pressure for those who arnt sure) but as I got older I got less and less interested. I also didn't understand grace, so the more I got uninterested the more I did wrong the more I felt condemed, the more I moved away from God, The more I felt he wasn't there anymore. Untill it got to the point where I would say I was not a christian and I didn't have a belife in God. I was then in upper school and started dating a boy and all I will say on that matter was he wasn't good for me and probely helped in my walk away from God. My whole life started to only revolved around him. It got to the point where my family didn't really mean much to me ither. I became a totally self centered person and would do anything to please myself and never anyone else. I became really argumentative and short fused. I got into stuff that was starting to drag me down, majorly.
Through this time when I got year 11 a childhood friend (and lifelong sister in christ) invited me to a youth alpha course. I went, but only to catch up with her. So I was quite happy not to listen.. to give those sunday school answers I had learnt so well whenever asked questions and well I went because it was fun to be around people and mess about.
Then it got to the Holy Spirit away day, And the day was all fine untill it got to the "lets invite the Holy Spirit" bit.. and I saw two people become christians.. I saw there faces change and something hit me.. and It was like a big slap in the face. You know when your friend is being really anoying and you just want to slap them to bring them back down to earth? God did that with me.. But hit me with his love and I cried lots. and lots. and it was the just like that feeling at Carl's baptism. I felt so free, But sad at the same time. That I had let everything slip. But God was so graceful to me. This is the point where my faith became my very own. Where I became a follower of Christ.
Making this change was REALLLLLLY hard. Changing life style completely took well, It probely still isnt finished yet to be honest. There were major changes I had to make straight away. I feel out with the guy I was seeing cause he didn't like christianity, He didn't like that I wouldnt answer my phone during church.. and these times got quite intense and horible at times. But everything was worth it. I had never cried as much before I was a christian, Which is strange cause there was so much sadness yet its the best thing thats ever happened to me. But the point is it was God changing my life, I had to let it out to him, Be honest with him, Give it over to him, and say "Take it I trust you and I'm gona go your way" which is really painful to give over but when God has it.. my word it is worth it.
I went off to college, Studied Art and Design, Absoultly loved it. Then got my place at Pompey and moved here, My first year in Pompey was very shakey I found it hard being away from parents who woke me up for church on sunday mornings. My witness was pretty rubbish and I drank alot.. was drunk most the time probely. But then God got hold of me and sorted me out in that loving graceful father type way he does things. I got really involved with Solent Community Church, and this church has now really become my family away from home. I started on the tea and coffee rota, and now I'm assistant lead youth worker. I love it there and my time there has been such a growing experience for me.
So I think thats about all of my testimony.


Stuck in a box?
God gave me a word today.. and it really spoke to me so I thought I would just share it as a end note.

You know when you save up for ages to buy a child that one toy. They amazing one.. with flashing lights.. sounds whatever is cool for toys nowdays and you give them this gift.. that cost you a arm and a leg. But then all the child wants once youve given it them is the box, and they spend ages with the box.. and your like "What about this amazing toy?" "It cost me everything" and God says that to us. Leave the box.. I have a better gift for you.. one that cost me greatly and will bless you more.

I hope the way I've worded stuff makes sence.. I'm not known for my fantastic grammer and spelling and well.. talking. ha.

God bless you whoever may read :o)